So todays assignment, to take inspiration from a previously followed/ read post.

So here goes, and i hope i don’t lose any of you who might not relate to this one.

I am currently half way through a little project i like to lovingly call ‘Operation who am i?’ (not really but sounds good hey?!)

A few years ago i got a wake up call.

I have been getting bigger and bigger since a traumatic incident in my early 20’s, one i am not going to go into now, and i finally saw some pictures and realised i didn’t recognise myself.

this one in particlar

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this is me and my mum, at her house on the day of my sisters wedding.

i cried, and still do when i see it. it’s hideous.

i had not long been to the hospital and found out that i couldn’t have children, well until i lost around 12 stone! to put that in perspective that is more than my sister weighs, i essentially needed to lose a whole person!

i was devastated, i had been kidding myself about my weight and size for such a long time but here it was for everyone, well mostly me to see.

how could i have been so blind?

this was 3 years ago. i have now lost around half what is needed. and that sadly was the easy part.

i have recently lost my motivation for why i started and seriously need to find my mojo.

have any one seen it?

but there is a bright side, because as you know i am not a negative Nelly.

i have lost half my goal, i am so much fitter and healthier then i was.

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i am going to give myself sometime at the weekend to just sit down and map out the next part of my plan.

so there it is!

this blog is not purely focussed on my weightless journey because i am so much more then that but i will update at various milestones.

hope i didn’t lose to many of my new readers there

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